For hours I have been asking myself whether I should do this or not. Lay bare myself for everyone to see. When it comes to my body and how I look I am not the most confident in the world. I get nervous sometimes been around my own boyfriend with hardly anything on let alone you lot seeing what I have become; that’s how unhappy I am with my body at this moment in time.
However; for me to do this journey and share this journey with everyone I thought it is important for you to see the real me. The me right now and the me that has to change.
Not so long ago I was a healthy size 8-10. I loved the outdoors and fitness; I was such a confident person. Over the past 18 months I have rapidly gained 5 stone, now wearing a size 16-18. I am not sure what this is down to, my eating habits have not changed and I am not overly stressed, maybe its something to do with the Depo contraception injection, who knows.
All I know now is that it is time for change. I want to lose this horrible over hang belly I have gained; even be able to get my face back, I seriously do not recognise myself anymore when I look in the it’s awful, the person staring back at me isn’t me.
I know this journey is going to be a really tough one. Probably will be one of the hardest things in my life I will have to do, there is going to be pain and disappointment at times but I want to do this, I need to this, even if its just 1lb at a time.