A letter to my anxiety.

Dear Anxiety

I hate you! Not to sound nasty but you have been the bane of my life for so long now that I am at the point where you have become hard to tolerate. I spend hours pondering over why you have chosen me and what I have done to deserve been lumbered with you.

You have this annoying way of interfering and ruining everything in life, the way you just turn up out of the blue unannounced is really not called for, why can’t you just leave me alone. Please just let me be. Growing up I thought you were normal; I thought everyone had you invading their head, but I was wrong. You are a parasite, invading the weak and vulnerable, taking control over every inch of life you can get hold of.

You ruin relationships and make having any form of a social life an impossible challenge. You always make me think the worst in things; always making me feel I need to rush into things but then making me so indecisive at the same time, it’s so confusing. You haunt me with paranoia to the point I am sick and my body is weak and out of my control you’re like medusa and turn me to stone every time I dare look at you. You make routine such a big issue, if something is a second late or worse still out of routine completely you make it feel as though the world is coming to an end around me.

I wish you could tell me why you always need such reassurance all the time about every little aspect of everything; when you don’t get that reassurance you punish me to the point that I don’t even want the ability to even have my own thoughts anymore. You have made every day of my life a living nightmare. The biggest challenge of my life has been dealing with you, but not anymore; we are over!

This is my letter of resignation to you. No more am I going to have you dictate and control my life. No more am I going to let you ruin my relationships and social life. Most importantly no more am I going to let you ruin me or my dreams.

 

I know you’re not going to be easy to ditch but I will, I am stronger than you think. I am going to live my life for me and not you, I am taking back the reins and having full control for once. There is so much in life in which you have come in the way of. Stopped me doing and achieving so much but watch this space; the new me is on its way.

 

Adios anxiety this is our final goodbye and do me a favour and never look back.

 

B x

 

P.S. Life is already so much more better without you.

 


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