It has been one year since I made the decided to come off all forms of hormonal birth control; I am so glad I made this decision.
Since coming of the Depo-Provera injection back in April 2016 I thought it was going to be an easy road to recovery in terms of getting my body back to normal again; oh how wrong was I. Unfortunately I have noticed that seeing any changes within myself and to my body is becoming a very long frustrating process but month after month I am slowly seeing that the decision to quit was the right one.
Positives I have seen since quitting birth control
1. Sex Drive – I have to say I have never had such a thriving desire for sex as I do now. Since coming away from hormonal birth control this yearning for sexual contact with my partner is at an all time high. It feels so good to actually yearn for it and enjoy it rather than doing it because I have to. When on birth control my lack of sexual desire was at an all time low, it took away my interest in the one thing that is so natural and amazing.
2. Periods – I never thought I would say this but I am actually happy to get my period each month. It took around 6 months after coming off the Depo-Provera before I saw my first period return but ever since they have been at a regular 28-29 day cycle and lasting for around 4 days each time. They have become a lot lighter to what I use to get before going on birth control so I am happy with how they are at the moment. I have also noticed I am becoming more and more broody with each monthly cycle that passes. Not sure if this is a natural yearning to procreate but it feels amazing wanting this desire to create a life. I hope one day in the future I will be able to make this desire a reality. Also getting in tune with my menstural cycle and the amazing feel of knowing that my body is becoming more natural.
3. Emotions – To have actual emotions back is an amazing feeling. I felt as though birth control took away my natural instinct to feel emotions. I was very anxious and depressed whilst on birth control and never really knew how to control myself emotionally. Over the past few months I am slowly beginning to feel myself again, sometimes I get anxious but it’s a natural anxiety not a anxiety fuelled by contraception.
Negatives I have seen since quitting birth control
1.Weight – When I was on hormonal birth I gained 5 stone in weight. Going from a size 6-8 to a size 16-18. It has really knocked my confidence putting on so much and lately has really got me down as I am struggling to lose the lbs. Since coming of the injection I have only lost around 7lbs. I am finding it very hard to curb my cravings and getting my eating habits under control. When I start doing well there always seems to be something that comes along making the tempetation all to hard and I give in. My willpower is something in which I really need to work on. Slowly I am dropping weight but it has become such a slow process that I am very frustrated in deed with it.
2. PMS – Having my periods back has been an amazing thing, having the PMS that comes along with the periods hasn’t been so amazing. With each month that passes I have noticed more and more my PMS making a come back. Around a week before my period is due the headaches are slowly returning. Also having cramps and period pains is becoming a regular occurance. My moods do change around the time of my period but I am slowly becoming more away of this and learning how to deal with these situations.
3. Pain – Most of the pain in which I get is down to my size. I have tiny legs and all this weight on top of them that exercise is becoming a real struggle. I have tried all sorts to get fit, clubbercise, gym even a bit of swimming just before I quit the injection but nothing has seemed to help. The pain in which I get in my knees and breathlessness also puts me off exercising. I know this is something is which I need to push through, as they say no pain no gain but sometimes the pain is so unbarable its hard to deal with. Next week I start a new form of exercise that is becoming more and more popular, trompine fitness. As trampoline fitness has been shown to have less impact on the joints but be as good as a running session I am hoping this will get some of my weight off and then make it more easier for me to try other forms of exercising. I have also invested in a pair of walking boots so I can get out and about a bit more within nature.
Overall the decision to come away from birth control as a whole was totally the right one for me. I haven’t felt so good in years and yes the process in some aspects of it are slow and frustrating but they are also amazing because I am becoming more at one with myself and my body. Since coming off the Depo I have invested in a Daysy fertility monitor and also tracking my cycle naturally. At first it was tricky getting into the swing of things and knowing when I am and not fertile but now I wouldn’t have it any other way. Yes there is a risk of becoming pregnant that risk is there with contraception. I want to become a more healthy individual from the inside out and that includes birth control methods. The daysy is so simple to use and is 99.3% scientifically proven method of birth control so the choice is an easy one to make.
I would urge all females out there to step away from hormobal birth control; there are better and more safer methods out there, more natural methods. We live in a society that encourages us to keep fit and eat healthy, a society that encourages and promotes a healthy lifestyle, why not be more healthy with birth control. Be more at one with your cycle, learn how your body works and what your body wants from you naturally. Learn to love and feel amazing again. Most of all, learn to be the true you again.